i got e keychain!!

ok..startin wit ystrdae..

neve in my whole lyf hav i seen sumtin sooo cruel n ruthless can b soo xcitin n beautiful!!nope..dun get me wrong here..i am not a saddist!!nor am i a psycho..but e part where V killd his biggst enemy was sooo damn marvellous!!!it was full of blood..(ooh..yeah it is..2t was sick of it as a mattr of fact..) but it was done graciously n wondrfully!!i juzz can't undrstand y 2t can't c it e way i do..well..diff pple hav diff taste i suppose..

in conclusion: i think V for Vendetta is a must-watch kinda movie!!must!!!

aniwae he askd me whethr i changd my hairstyle ystrdae or not..n he said it was nicer..wth..i didn't even do anitin wit my hair lho!!!y did he hav to make me happy every tym i meet him?!is he tryin to make me suffr even more?!y?!Y?!e more i c him e more i lyk him..e hardr it gets to forgt him..i still lyk him lyk mad!!OMG..

cross country..

i was e first gurl from my class to reach e finishin line..quite proud of it..but it was juzz bcozz ying neve run tat dae..othrwise i wouldn't b..aniwae i wasn't tat fast..i was stoppin a few tyms, waitin for sisil..but i was still joggin on e place lha..so i didn't really feel tat tired..but e last slope was really a killr man!!it was sooo damn steep!!n too many pple were walkin..so i couldn't do anitin but walkin also.. >.< aftr tat slope, everitin was juzz mental strength..it was so damn tirin tat i could no more think of anitin animore..e only thing i could think of was tat i could not stop othrwise i wouldn't get there on tym..pai seh ma?! ^-^ lucky i kept runnin n i reachd there in tym..i even got e keychain!!YEY!!n e keychain is soooo nice!!i luv it!!only latha n i got e keychain from our class..

he is again e first in cross country..i saw him when he was about to reach e finishin line..he sweat lyk wad xia..all over!!i can't imagine how fast he ran..n he didn't even look tat tired!!unbelievable!!where got pple lyk tat one?!

well..i'm quite happy for myself as i succeed in tat i didn't stop..but my feet got blistr which is vr pain btw bcozz it is undr my toe!!soo everitym i walk, my feet feel my hurt..summore todae got PE n they askd us to run 2.4!!

but aniwae when i was runnin, he suddnly ran beside me, calld my name n said,"come on!!"..he clappd for me summore!!can imagine how happy i was?!aftr PE, when i was doin my humwork in e canteen, he suddnly sat in front of me n told me tat i ran quite fast..i actually ran vr slow lhe juzz now..my feet were killin me man!!n my timin suckd!!

NAPFA is vr near ald..die die also muzz get good one k!!it's my last tym doin NAPFA aniwae..cia yo mirna!!

cross country is cumin to town!!

xcitin!!!

i keep my fingrs cross, hopin tat i won't b e last one to reach e fiishin line.. >.<

aniwae..miun's surprise bdae party was a complete failure!!she knew all along tat we were sumhow plannin it for her!!but nvmd lha..quite fun!!haha..long tym neve meet all e MG gurls..mizz them loadss n loadzzz!! ^-^

i am ok now..at least now i dun feel as if i am a loser..n i am still tryin to b positive thinkin n not to compare myself to her..it is vr surprisin to know tat she herself is also havin problem n is vr sad..e fact tat she is sad bcozz she compares bout herself n othr pple shockd me even more..turn out those to whom we feel jealous xperience similar stuff as us..it is juzz a real eye-opennr!!i tried to tell her tat she is prfect for who she is..n comparin wit othrs is juzz e biggst mistake one can make to make his lyf miserable..i myself is tryin to learn from tis shockin xprience..aftr all we r all still kids who r tryin to find our true selvs n our own ways of livin..

todae aftr skul, saudrs 2t n i were walkin back home, when suddnly we saw him n our othr classmates doin pull-up..seein us, he, all of suddn, askd me if i could do one pull-up n wantd to treat me watchin movie wit him if i could..wth?!i can't even reach e block lha hellow?!but i was quite flattrd n happy cozz he only askd me..c how dangerous likin sumone can b?!wadever he does, though it is actually not a big deal for him, can flattr me till i want to faint..thinkin tat he might lyk me also a big mistake which i can't elude at tyms..AT TYMS!!OMG..can imagine how many tyms i hav tried prsuadin myself tat he impossibly lyks me?!now i'm gettin tired of askin forcin myself to believe e truth since it is simply easier to believe e reverse..

aniwae..cross country's cumin..,muzz take care of my stamina.. >.<>

wadeva..

nvmd..i giv up..i will neve b as good as her..nor will anione lyk me more than her..

so here i am..alone in e dark..sobbin quietly so as not to wake my roomie..regrettin everitin i have done..everitin i hav chosen..

y did i go to innova?
y did i force to go to 05S71?
y did i think they will accept me as they do to her?
y did i fall for him?
y did i ever think there is always a possibility he would lyk me?
y did i think i had frenzz in S71?
close ones summore?

it was all my imagination..my prfect dream of sumwhere i belong..too bad it isn't..n it will never b..it was all fake n unreal..n all tis while i hav been tryin soo hard (too hard) to assure myself tat i live in a prfect world, where everyone is my fren n they lyk me as wad a fren usually does..

too bad they don't!!!

i am tired of them..i am tired of him..i am tired of IJC..i am tired for everitin!!!!

when he didn't msg me although he plan class outin for tml, i was heart brokn..not yet enough hurtin me, it turnd out tat he msgd her..still not enough, ying also msg her but not me..i am nobody to anione..well at least not in my class..who am i aniwae?

i thought ying was my fren..nobody dared to go near her at first..i was e first gurl who approach her..n she was closest to me..well it turns out tat now she knows e othr gurls in class, she doesn't lyk me as much as she lyk them rite?!i am juzz e last resort remembr?pple go to me bcozz i am always there for them..bcozz i am friendly..but too bad!!it's not enough!!i am still a dull n borin gurl in e end!!wadeva..dun care liao..

i am anti social!!cun u dare cum near me!!

wad a lyf..

lyf is similar to rollercostr..first it brings u up to the sky, makin ur heart beatin soo damn hard full of excitement..n e nxt thing u know u r falling in a rapid increasin speed, allowin ur heart to stop beatin in reaction towards e gravitational force..

well at least, tat's wad lyf is for me..

it was juzz ystrdae i felt every possible feelings a human bein can hav within one dae..happiness, proud, jealousy, anger, shame, sadness, guilt,disappointment..all those juzz in a dae!!

i was sad bcozz i only got 13 for my MCQ for econs..
i was sad bcozz i got no one to shed my tears wit me..
i was jealous bcozz everyone prefferd her than me..
i was jealous bcozz she can talk to him..
plus e fact tat he seemd so relaxd bein near her..
i was jealous as she is close to our juniors..
i was angry bcozz sumone told me i was juzz e last resort..
i was angry bcozz everyone dun lyk my existance bein near them..
i felt so damn guilty since i neve revised maths for my block test..
which can be seen in my wondrful results..
(u should c e way ms ng lookd at us tat dae in e class..)
i was happy bozz mr chu said tat my result was not bad at all..
i was happy bcozz he offerd to teach me how to do free-throw..
plus e fact tat he only offrd tat to me..
i was happy bcozz he taught me how to do lay-up..
n e fact tat i can do it now..
i was happy bcozz he kept encouragin me tat i could do it..
n he said he would make sure i could do it..
i was happy bcozz he came to me when i was practisin my lay-up in anothr bball court..
i was happy when he acted as if he wantd to impress me wit all e stupid actions..
all e air-walk, 3-points-shoot, n bouncin e ball to e net..
(when he actually didn't mean to attract my attention of course)
i was happy when he askd me y i wantd to go home so fast..
n e fact tat he tried to prsuade me to stay..
i was proud bcozz i could dye my fren's hair successfully..
i was proud bcozz i did bettr than her in maths though i didn't study n she did..
n i am ashamd of myself who hav these thoughts..
i am disappointd in myself for bein tat low of a prson..
i am also ashamd of myself for thinkin (even only 15mins long) tat he could lyk me..
i am disappointd in myself as it turnd out vr hard for me to forgt him..

now u c how lyf plays me as her toy?

i dun lyk me..my self confidence seemd to decrease by too much till it reaches e point where i dun want to meet anyone anymore..i dun want to bcum a burdn to those pple..i stoppd lykin socialisin..i feel uncomfortable bein near my classmates as i am scard they would compare me wit anyone else..i am scared anyone would realise tat i dun hav any bst fren in skul..i dun want to talk to them as i felt i was soo borin..i refusd to c tat they prefr to talk to her rathr than talkin to me..tat they htink she is more important than me..i feel as if i am a loser..

jealousy kills..if only i can control tis feelin i think i won't xperience this lack of confidence..where is e old me who didn't care of anitin on e above?where is e old me who wasn't borin at all?where?where?WHERE?!

i can't find her anymore..

she, who everyone says vr cute..
she, who is vr bubbly..
she, who is vr talkative..
she, who cares bout pple..
she, who can't care less bout small tiny little stuff..
she, whose heart is still vr pure n clear as watr..

i mizz tat gurl soo much..she seemd to b gone now..if only she still exists i think she can help me bcum a bettr prson as she is bettr than me!!

EXAM IS OVEEEEER!!!!

ha..ha..ha

EXAM IS TOTALLY OVER!!!no more notes to study..no more outlines to read..no more TYS questions to do!!!hohoho..merry xmas n appy new year!!!

enough of e crap of how appy i am now tat e exam is over..if i dun stop now i can write an essay of y i am a happy prson without exam papers here n there.. >.<>

well aniwae..i screwd every paper i did..EVERY SINGLE PAPER mind u..i dun care bout physics..nor do i care bout maths..the fact tat i didn't study at all for those two subjects actually lighten up my burden when i couldn't do almost three quater of each paper..

it is not tat i dun regret not studyin of course..physics paper was relatively easy..n i knew i sumhow could do it IF i studied..but since i didn't study i dun xpect tat much from myself..the same goes for maths..

but econs?!i tell u ah..i could do e essay quest ok..e skul went thru similar kind of questions for several tyms already!!!wad e hell was i thinkin?!leavin ard 20mins only to do the second quest?!OMG..n it was e fact tat i actually could do e quest which makes me vr sad..if i couldn't do it i would think of it as a long gone case ald..but i really could do tis one ok..i really could..n i chose e wrong quest summore!!wad the hell?!i was soooo damn sad lha!!neve in my whole entire lyf hav i felt tis idiotic bfor..

n i promised mr chu a C!!i am SOOOOO GOIN TO DIE!!mr chu..i am soo sorii..i really am..if only i can really giv u a C..i really dun want to c u shakin ur head towards me..i would feel soo damn guilty..u r e bst tcher in innova n sumhow i believe u r e only tcher tat believe in us..thank u soo much for tat..i really respect u a lot..dunno how i am goin to say tis but..i will study harder..i am sooo soriii..

aniwae..my whole week was full of notes..notes..n again..NOTES!!i realise i hav neve studied for my physics when i read my notes n i found a blank here n there..n e fact tat i didn't even understand most of wad i wrote..same goes for e last 3 cahptrs of maths..i am sooo goin to fail!!

n pple dun believe when i told them i didn't touch maths n phy!!they still said tat i would get 3As tis tym..ha.ha.i am wonderin how their face would b when they c my 3Fs..

ooh..i haven't told u..when i was waitin for mike in MRT station, suddnly tis gurl came to me..turned out she was a modellin agent..wad the hell?!ha..ha.she askd me if i dun mind givin my phone no as she is tryin to find sum new models..she even gave me her card!!i think e whole world is goin upside down ald..me?!a model?!ha..ha..ha.so funny!!but in e end i gave her an unknown no..cozz i neve remembr my phone no aniwae..ha..ha.

well..i think basically tat's all happnin to me for these few daes..borin rite?!yalah..yalah..exam wad?!wad do u xpect?! >.<

sad lyf of me..

these daes suck!!

well..maybe i demand too much..maybe i'm soo damn not thankful for wad i hav..but heii!!i juzz want to b happy ok..mind u..but pple hav rights to want to b happy!!

i went NUS open house to c whethr i hav any chances to go there or not..well..i do hope i do..den i met rhesa who kept askin me bout my CCA..not irritatin at first..but HELLOW?!kepp askin non-stop lhe!!wad e hell?!ok..so i can't make it into e team..so wad?!wad's ur problem man?!i know u can make it!!so u hav to show off ah?!annoyin!!!!

in e evenin i went to airport to send olip off last saturdae..which turnd out to b quite disastruos..sad to say..

i wantd to talk to olip on e way..long tym neve really talk to her liao..but yeah..her frenzz were cumin..so..nvmd lha yaah..no need to elaborate here..in short, i felt sooo damn left out bcozz they kept talkin sumtin tat i dun undrstand..too bad i'm not a social prson..i am anti social!!!YEY!

todae was a vr vr vr tirin dae!!econs for 3hrs in e mornin..den maths for 3 hrs!!waah!!how good can tat b?!though maths felt to b vr vr fast n fun!!(i can't believe i say tis..)well..i think tchers do play a part in pupils' study..(i shall b nice n say notin bout my last maths tcher..)

so i decided to go to saunders's house to watch e gay movie..(tat sounds wrong sumhow..)n i askd 2t n zuan to go wit me..well..everitin went quite well till e part where i was supposed to watch n they disturbd me wit y-tis-show-is-vr-long kind of statement..talkin sooo loud summore..eeh..plzzz lha!!!they disturbd me durin e most important part lho!!wth?!in e ned i didn't get e show n it was kinda wastin my tym..ok..so i askd them to accompany me..but if they didn't want they can juzz refuse to rite?!wth..wth..wth..

in e end of e dae..saunders showd 2t all e school photos he had taken..ALL u know!!ALL!!but when i wantd to c, he didn't allow me n said it was already too l8 n told us tat we were supposed to go home..wth?!i know he lyks 2t lha..but hellow?!i'm also a human bein ok..i hav feelin!!it's not bcozz i can laugh all e way, meanin i can not b sad!!it's not bcozz i can not scould pple, meanin i can not get angry ok!!juzz bcozz i am blur doesn't mean i am juzz a kid who has no feelin ok!!i juzz wantd to c a few photos, yet he can't let me..

okaii..maybe it's juzz me demandin too much..aftr all he has been a good host by allowin me to go there n watch movie..n aniwae 2t is vr special for her wad?!calm down!!CALM DOWN!!

i know tis sounds lyk a diff me..but yeah..i am sorri to say tat i AM lyk tis..i'm not perfect!!far from it as a mattr of fact!!

when will pple think i am a grown-up who has feelin?!

if only i could hav wings
i'd let e earth finish my bloody flesh
i'd giv up everitin,even my name
i'd thrust a knife into my heart
n let evritin burst off
jealousy, broken pieces, revenge, self-pity
leavin only one feelin inside..
LOVE!!

stayin wit u ur whole lyf
protectin u..
cheerin for u..
bein ur angel..
wad else can i ask from mothr earth?

*entitled for those who r able to read my blog*

my mannerles GP HOD!!!

unbelievable as it may seem, but my new-born JC really really knows how to disappoint pple..i didn't believe it at first (or rathr i refusd to c it..)but now i hav cum to a realisation tat..

MY JC SUX LYK HELL!!!

ok..i'm sorii for bein soo rude n all..but..i was really really disappointd wit my JC tis mornin..i think it was a complete disastr tat i actually chose tis skul..i should hav joind NYJC instead, as where MOE sent me to last tym..tis skul really has NO FUTURE!!none..not at all..i was sooo dumb tat i actually choose tis kind of skul where even those we hav to look up to turnd out to b mannerles..so sad xia.. >.<

so e story began..

i went joggin tis mornin in skul for make-up PE..by e tym e bell rang, i didn't want to change to my uniform since i was so damn sweaty..so i didn't go for changin..when i was in assembly ald, mrs chia askd me to put on my skirt..can u imagine sumone ask u to put on ur skirt in front of everyone??!well..since i AM a nice gurl, i put it on although i think it was such a non-sense!!tis i still can take without furthr trouble..

HOWEVER, tis idiotic HOD of GP (who has no mannr btw!!) suddnly came to me n told me tat my skirt was soooo short..when i told her tat i was wearin short inside n hence my skirt wasn't put on properly, she askd me,"so it's ok to wear a short skirt if u wear short inside?" den she straight away pulld down my skirt!!!

WAD THE HELL?!

so..TAT IS HOW A TCHER WOULD BEHAVE?without any mannr?unbelievable!!!GP tcher summore, who i assume to hav read a lot, hav wide knowledge, n etc..yet, SHE HAS NO MANNER n CAN'T EVEN RESPECT HER STUDNT?!i can't even believe she is a tcher in my skul man..even a science tcher has to know how to respect his studnt, how to b a good example for his students, how to keep his tempr n mannr..tis one?!GP tcher u know?!wad else should b in her mind xcept those currnt afair?those art-stuff?(which include how to socialise n everitin i suppose..)as in..they should know bettr bout mannr than science tcher rite?

well..i think i generalised too much liao..maybe it is a generalisation tat all GP tcher actually has more knowledge bout pple or mannr..maybe i thought too highly on them..

TAT is wad i call..GREAT EXAMPLE!!!

so now studnts can pull down pple's skirts!!wad a gr8 idea of a college!!it is indeed a good start to b a *STAR* between every JC in Singapore!!wad a wondrful skul i am in now!!(can u sense e sarcasm?!)

n i should hav known tat since she is a GP tcher, she doesn't hav enough common sense!!i didn't believe in those kinds of prejudice..but.. HEII!!she has proven tat herself!!she couldn't even believe tat when we are wearing our PE short inside our skirt, our skirt looks much shortr than it actually is!!(tis is a fact btw!!n i still can not believe how dumb my tcher is..or rathr i dun wanna belive it..>.<)

she was still even dared to say tat i gave too many reasons!!wth?!i gave only ONE REASON!!ONE!!lyk tat also cannot count?

OMG!!how embarassin can my skul b?can't even choose a smartr tcher?n e skul actually xpcted us to do much much bettr?!

long..long..LONG..LONG..LONG..way to go!!

sad to say.. but yeah..too bad INNOVA!!as a newcomer, u hav even faild to choose ur tcher..wad makes u think u will success?

n above all tat..WAD COULD MAKE ME GO TO TIS SKUL?!so dumb of me!!well..at least i hav gr8 tchers here wit me..mr chu, ms ng, mr sim..otherwise i will b in total self-denial n try to prove to myself tat i am, at least, not dumb!!

wad a sad lyf!!

i really want to tell her all those u know?!if only i can hav some chances..ok..soo i'm childish..i'm kiddo..i'm so damn immature to actually think of tis kind of stuff n actually hav an urgency to tell her all these n get myself into trouble..but i was mistreated ok!!it was not justice at all!! AT ALL!!!

it was a total disastr okaii!!can imagine how ashamd i was when she did tat?!

n wad it actually represent n show me about my skul was actually e one tat hurt me most!!

[SIGH]

okaii..enough of my sad n anguish story..i'm goin to tell u wad happn todae wit mr chu..

in e end of e lesson, he askd sum pple in class if he could xpct a C from them (B for jason..duuh..)when he actually askd me, i was so damn surprisd!!

M : eem..can not xpect too much from me lha..
Mr.chu: wad?still can say can not xpect too much from u?
M :haah? i mean..u can c from my econs wad?it's soo lousy..my language also vr bad..
Mr.chu:mirna..if u hav tat kind of mind, i can not say anitin..but i'll hav to say i'm sorii cozz u'll b e only one who will get an E in e end of e dae..if u hav tat kind of mindset, i can not do anitin else animore..everitin depends on ur mind..if u think it is impossible, so it will..u understand mirna?

slappd me straight away!!wake up mirna!!do sumtin bout ur attitude!!stop slackin ard!!!OMG!!no one can help me but myself..he made me respectin him even more..i'll read from now on!!

mr chu i luv u!!!!

(sound sooooo wrong!!)

btw..DATE MOVIE sux!!dun watch!!waste ur tym..waste my money..high opp cost!!! >.<

such a wonderful dae!!

i find it vr hard not to smile todae..^-^ eithr bcozz it is such a beautiful dae for me..or it is juzz me tryin to console myself..

FACT OF E DAE:

(i find tis article sayin tat ur mood can change dependin on ur facial xpression..ha..ha.i was provn to b corrct den!!no mattr wad happn, juzz smile n hope for e bst n everitin will cum out fine!! ^-^ most of e tym at least..)

aniwae..todae was vr fun bcozz IJC invitd PERFECT10 to cum n actually xplain to us bout tis hollaback thingy..it was Carrie chong (is e spellin corrct?) n Young (cute name xia!!ha..ha.is it bcozz he is new?well..sorii..i'm lamin ard..)n it was awesomE!!i luv it!!den i saw tis DJ supr dupr damn CUTE!!

SHAN WEE is lyk e one in every gurl's dream lho!!he looks so damn charmin lha!!OMG!!n i was juzz 3 metres away from him, yet i couldn't take photo wit him?!i hate tat stupid chinese tcher!!!he is my dream guy ok!!! >.<

sorii..i'm bein soo unreasonable..but he really is good lookin!!i can juzz stare at him for a few hours n i won't b bored of him..

aniwae shan wee do e talkin for e J1s, which was right away aftr J2s talk..so aftr i had my GP lecture, i went there to c if i could take pic wit him..is it too much of me askin for such thing?!eeh..HELLOW!!sum pple could take ok..i am saddened..(no such word, i know..)i ran all e way there lhe..wit e risk of being caught by tchers n staff..n wit e risk of bein l8 for PHY lect..(e tchers vr vr vr scary one btw..he can juzz scould u in front of everyone..)alone summore!!(e other were too scard tat they would kna caught..)

i was soooo PISSED!! >.<

turnd out i was l8 by..eem..10 minutes?hikzz..they left already..

but dun worii!!if e story ended soo sad i wouldn't b smilin all e way rite?ha..ha.

Perfect 10 also brought along wit them tis new local and lha..e singr was sooo funny!!

"we usually sing lyk a lot of us..but todae can not bcozz e othrs r in e toilt, wangin themselves.."

(WAD E HELL?!)

ha..ha.but xtremely funny!!

"i find tis JC vr new, wit young tchers who r chobu btw..e older ones not chobu lha..but i'm sure they're good tchers.."

(WALAO!!!)

"i dun want ur tchers to scould me, but..i dun care!!!"

(attitude xia!!ha..ha.)

"i will sing some more songs so tat u guys can b l8 for e nxt lesson k!!n btw..i giv u guys prmission to not cumin skul tml!!"

(who e hell he think he is?!)

ha..ha.i really lyk him man!!vr vr vr hillarious!! ^-^ n he could sing vr nicely..well..it's e songs which r nice i think..but eithr way, he wrote e songs wad?ha..ha.

enough of e crap..

ooh yeah!!good news!!i pass my MCQ!!ha..ha.15/20..not bad rite?he2..mine one is even highr than tian chong u know!!ha..ha.but still lowr than jason..(lyk duuh...)

i saw ying's blog ystrdae..it was vr sad..it was as if she hatd herself sumhow..i juzz dun get it..she is PERFECT!!well at least for me, she is everitin tat i can dream to b..good at sports, good at studies, hav sooo many frenzz, hav a wodrful family..but i think i muzz try how it feels being in her shoes, den i can say bout tis kind of stuff..corect?i feel vr sad for her..

u know wad hurts me when i read it?she didn't even tell me bout tis kind of stuff..i was there wit her e all e tym in skul, 5 daes a week.. yet she didn't giv me a single little tiny clue..

i hav given u my hands to hold on, but if u dun even want them, wad can i do to lighten ur burdns?

in these kinds of tym, i feel sooo useless..i want to help them, yet i dunno how..i really really hope i can sumhow take their burdns away from them..

aniwae..back to appy story!!

he sat wit me e whole maths lesson!!i was sooo damn appy!!okaii..forgive me for bein such a foolish for still likin him even though i know he lyks sumone else liao..but i juzz couldn't help it!!we were chattin all e way lhe..even e vr fact tat he schose to sit nxt to me made me supr appy liao!!! >.<

he was interestd in my sistr when i told him she was in skul team..wth?!

ooh..a bit sad juzz now though..durin econs tutorial, mr chu askd him y he wantd to buy econs txt book for wad..den he told mr chu tat he was goin to share wit a "fren" from othr JC..notin hurts actually..but den 2t told me tat he wants to buy bcozz he wants to study econs wit e gurl he lyks n share e book wit her.. >.<>

well..tat's all for todae i suppose..i hav tons to do btw..

i hate exams!!!

why?why?WHY?wth...

sumtin funny happnd durin GP todae..we were discussin bout whether or not gurls hav adam's apple (we do rite?well..not as big n obvious as guys do..but i really think we hav lhe..)aniwae..back to e story..mr sim said tat we can not judge whether one is a guy or a gurl by adam's apple since it is not vr obvious for sum pple, such as himself since he is fat (not tat i said tat okaii..it was he himself said it..i don't insult pple!!)den suddenly, he said, "mirna's one obviously can not c one lha.."

wth?!

i know i'm fat okaii!!well..so i told him i was goin to lose weight..(i will okaii!!!)den he told me tat i dun need to lose wieght and tat i'm already attractive no mattr bout my weight..he even thought tat i hav attractd sooo many guys bfor!!wad a nonsense..

but it was soooo..eem..sweet?yeah..i think he's quite sweet..

contradictorily, i realisd sumtin todae tat really oppnd my eyes..

i'm NOT attractive..HELLOW?!as if it is new or wad..but it was rathr painful to even know tat..okaii..here i'm not talkin bout guy-gurl relationship ok..i'm talkin bout sumtin even more basic than tat..friendship..

not even a good friendship..not even bout e close long-term raltionship one..it's juzz a new one..fresh one..e one where pple start e friendship..

i hav tis junior calld jason..he's a vr funny guy..nice indeed..2t jason n i went to school togethr todae..not tat i want to compare or anitin..but he sumhow didn't really want to talk to me..he preferd 2t..lyk duuuh..of course lha..she's vr pretty, nice to talk to, n a lot more..(okaii..i might sound a bit jealous..but i'm not ok..it's juzz vr obvious..)

it it happnd only once, i wouldn't even think bout it..but it happnd again!!on our table, there were 2 J1s..instead of askin me bout e school stuff, they askd 2t who were furhtr down than me..

wth?!

am i tat unattractive?

last tym also that happnd twice..when we were walkin togethr, strangrs will tend to talk to her, not me..am i soo scary? or i'm juzz too weird?i know i'm not as pretty or interstin ok..but it was juzz too much lho!!

i dun think i lyk being near 2t..i feel vr vr inferior..i know it sounds vr bad of me, but i always think so..she has soo many good friends in class..she has soo many frenzz in SCHOOL!!!me lhe?nvmd..forgt it..

mr sim told me juzz now tat communicatin n makin pple comfortable bein near me is my gr8st talnt..wth?!i'm SOOO not lho..2t is much bettr than me in tat..n it's not talnt..not as if i can b proud of it or anitin..wadeva..

aniwae, i got 8/25 for my essay..well..at least not zero lho..ha..ha.i thought it would turn out minus instead of zero!!i rally hope my MCQ test juzz now went well..(i'm crossin my fingrs >.<)

n my maths test i got 15/20!!YIPPIE!!!

i'm vr tird todaae..n tml is such a long dae..i'd bettr go to bed now..enough protst from me aniwae..

lyf is not always beautiful..

yup..yup..

lyf is not always beautiful..
but tat is exactly wad makes us cherish our wondrful moments..

well aniwae..joke of todae..

there is tis gurl in my class, lily, who knows notin all princesses who hav accompanied all gurls growin up, namely Snow White, Cinderella, Red Ridin Hood, etc..she really knows notin, u know..n when i said notin, it's REALLY REALLY NOTIN!!!ha..ha.she's sooo cute!!

so here's one example of e convrsation between some evil people (who lyk to laugh at her disability) and lily..

touty :eeh..lily..how many dwarfs r in cindrella story?
lily :lyk duuh..7 lha!! (so damn confidnt!!)
touty :hahahahahahaha...no childhood!!
lily :haah?she got dwarf meh? 2 only wad?
mirna :hahaha(walao!!i know cinderella's evil stepsistrs r always ugly..but dwarfs?ha..ha.she's so damn evil man!!)
touty:...(speechles)

yeah..tat's one of e many examples..ha..ha.so cute xia!!i'm wonderin how her childhood was actually lyk..ha..ha (ok..now, I AM evil!!)

aniwae..my classmates n i were, sumhow,forced to go for tis "school outin" to c an exhibition of choices where we can actually go aftr our A's in Suntec..not bad..as in..i went c a lot of universities..not tat i'm interested in everitin of course.. ^-^ it's juzz tat i still dunno where i want to go..or worse, i dun even know wad i wanna do..but i think it should b engineerin lha..i think i'm goin eithr NUS or NTU..well..i'll keep my fingrs cross..hopin i can get in to eithr one of these..othrwise, i dunno where to go liao.. >.<

aftr lookin ard, ying n i didn't know where to go liao..so we followd e guys to c e trophy cup..lucky i did!!!

they actually take our pic wit e trophy n gave it to us..for FREE!!can u believe it?!ha..ha.i was so damn appy lha..well..i may not b a gurl who is into soccr soo much..but when it cum to takin pic?ha..ha.dun ask!!FREE summore!!n my guy was also there!!i was soo appy can b there wit him n chat wit him.. ^-^ though he jokinly said tat i lookd lyk a china citizen..bcozz my eyes were soo damn small in e pic..but heii..much bettr than him k..his one was a total gone case lha..ha..ha.eyes were juzz lines..blinkin in e wrong tym.. ^-^

n my relationship wit calvin is not bad..we actually talkd..unbelievable but true!!well..i'm not in e mood to get myself enemies..so i think it's a good sign?eem..certainly hope soo..n i think he is not a bad guy lhe..cum to think of it he didn't even put my name in his blog..(i didn't even realise tat it was me lha..hello?!)i do hope i won't have to change mymind about all these..

ooh..yeah..we had our class outin aftrwards..though tat guy neve went wit us..but it was sumhow vr special!!i luv our class outin ystrdae!!!

ate buffe in siam kitchn..(notin special actually) n ying can't eat a lot of stuff..well..as a mattr of fact many of them couldn't eat e food..in e end i finishd all e spicy food..which was a LOOT btw(i think i gain 3 kg liao xia..>.<)

i took a lot n a lot n a lot of pics ystrdae..n it all turnd out vr vr vr nice!!i lyk!!

we den went to e top of e fountain where we could c e message pple sent to their loved ones..so nice!!they also providd e song lhe..n it turnd out to b vr romantic..i luv lookin at e fountain wit all e lights while at e same tym listnin to e songs..it was juzz soo beautiful!!!

touty n gerald requestd a song n sent 05S71 a message..NICE!!e song was "tat thing u do"..our class song..i mizz those tym when we were soo free..n when we were discussin sumtin as a whole class..i realy mizz those tym..when e song was playd we sang togethr.. i think they also mizz those tyms when we were even closr than we are now..when there was no problems between us..when everitin seemd to b soo easy n fun..

mervin also sent a message for touty..well..yeah..i know she must hav felt vr pai seh tat tym..but he lookd soo damn pathetic..i saw him liao i pitied him soo much..it was juzz soo sad..n u know wad e worse part was?touty laughd when his requested song for her couldn't b found..i dunno y but i felt so sorii for him..n my impression for touty has totally changd..i really dunno y..juzz one little gsture, n i dun feel e same towards her..i dun want to c her in e way i do now..i was sumhow vr disappointd in her..she is my fren wad?i muzz accept her for wad she is..but how cum tis tiny little small thing can change how i feel?i dun lyk e touty i know now..i want her image reside in my mind as who she has always been..so egoistic of me..i'm ashamd of myself.. >.<

but den saunders told me tat it happn all e tym..as in there r tyms in pple's lyf when they do sum mistakes..aftr all it was juzz ONE gesture, n i shouldn't judge pple juzz basd by tat only..well..true lha actually..i'm tryin to keep her as who she has always been..

QUESTION OF THE DAE:
how cum he can suddnly bcum soo wise?

well aniwae..we sang n hummd wit e songs on e fountain..it was so fun!!i think i'm an easily-contentd gurl..ha..ha.n btw i really think saunders can sing vr well..he should hav joind any song compt..^^aniwae, we took lots of pics..i realisd i juzz luv stayin near them sumhow..

btw..i hate STEP ANN!!

at nite when touty was in my room usin intrnet, suddnly steph ann came..(tat wickd witch)n askd touty wad she was doin in my room..(wit a vr vr loud voice btw) so i askd her to lower her voice since my roomie was sleepin..u know wad she said?

"can u not be soo rude?"

HELLOW?!!it's my room for goodness sake!!summore my roomie was really slepin!!anione..ANIONE..in her rite mind would hav known tat she muzz keep e voice down..correct?!well..at least for those who hav mannr..too bad i think she doesn't hav tis..(tsk..tsk..tsk..soo sad!!)

WAD THE HELL?!go n die lha u stupid mannerles witch!!

FORT MINOR!!!!

well..todae news!!

FORT MINOR RAWKZZ!!!it was soo cool tat i decided i'd bcum linkin park's hardcore!! (wad e hell?!) ha..ha.

it was too short though..but nvmd..i still LUV it!!i lyk e way they rap..it was juzz sooo COOL!!summore they playd nice songs..(n when i said nice songs, it meant SUPR DUPR NICE!!)

they even playd "yeah!" with violins!!it was juzz soo unbelievably GR8!! wad a combination man!!

"Where'd you go?
I miss you so
Seems like its been forever that you've been gone"

i do luv e lyrics!!it is wondrful!!well..i totally undrstand y pple listn to tis kind of music..it shows them anger, anguish, n pain..juzz lyk wad pple xperince in their road of lyf..it helps them in tellin them tat pple hav e same problems as they do..it also releasd their emotions when they move n dance as they listn to e music..release stress i suppose.. *-*

music..helpin, yet, at e same tym, destroyin pple's mind..

but aniwae..FORT MINOR rawkzz!!!

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well..i think my name now is vr bad liao in e eys of all e headmistress or AHM..

ha..ha.TOO BAD!!i dun care!!not even a small little tiny feelin!!

so..i'm INFAMOUS..

so wad?!

as if it can kill me sumhow..ha..ha.i tell u wad..

DREAM ON!!!

tat woman who has no lyf was vr vr vr irritatin!!she got no brain, i suspct.. (tsk..tsk..soo sad.. >.<) i told her i need my lights on to study..n wad she said? use ur table lamp..if it's not good enough, juzz go sleep lha..

WALAO!!! she thinks everyone is lyk her is it?!sooo free?! (plzz undrstand e vr fact tat she has no lyf..)

tsk..tsk..really really such a pitty lho..

well..i shall b nice n..

FORGIVE THOSE WHO HAS NO LYF..

aftr all i'm a nice prson wad?!

though she has been such an ass..
though she is sooo fake..
though she is supr damn irritatin..
though she SUX!!!

well..let's c how far i can stand her..