i am sorry..

I am sorry I have loved you. I am sorry you have loved me back. I am sorry it has to end this way. I am sorry things don't work out. I am sorry we have to be so different. I am sorry life has to be this hard. I am sorry for the pain we have to experience.

But of all things that I am sorry for, I am most sorry to tell you that love is sometimes not enough.

It has been two years and two months. We have created beautiful memories of our happiness and sadness that we went through together and I am truly grateful for all that. I would be lying if I tell you I don't love you anymore. I do, probably more than you do to me. I have spent a lot of nights crying alone, worrying about our relationship, about you, about us, and I have found no better solutions than this.

I hope you can understand this one day, and forgive me. It's a long way to go, I realize, but I still hope you will.

You are a great man with a lot of love, even though that doesn't show sometimes. You will find a better girl who is beautiful, refined, and not stubborn, who has the same principals as you do. I know she will love you so much, and vice versa. I know you will lead a happy life, where ever you are.

Take care, and be happy. Have a great life ahead of you.

Good bye.

like OMG who does he think he is?!

This evening, I received a message in my inbox from my cousin's ex-boyfriend. His name is Richard, and he was kinda nice, and we all (read: the whole family) kinda liked him. But one day, when my cousin told him that she didn't like the way he behaved when he was around his platonic good friends (read: too close to them), he decided to leave my cousin. The story ended, and for a few months until this evening, I have never thought about this sad story anymore.

So, when I received this message, I was so surprised.

Mel,,,

Pa kabare? Hmm.. I just get so confused about me and Lili.. I don't know what's on her mind about me.. I know that she could have a million reason to hate me and to be mad at me..

I've tried to be her best friend, like we did and we had in the first place.. However, it seems that she won't do that.. She keep on telling me that "Lili butuh waktu untuk bisa temenan lagi.." ato "Saat ini Li gak bisa temenan ma koko..".. I really sad that it ended up like this..

Hmmm... Maaf yah Mell tiba2 gue email beginian.. Just don't know who I should talk about this. I really love her, maybe not as my partner, but as my best friend (sister)..

Anyway, maaf dah keep on talking and talking.. hehehe.. how are you? kapan lulus? kalo gue lagi maen2 ke sing, temenin yah.. ;p

Cheers,
Richard


I mean, what the hell?! It is of no surprise at all that I am on my cousin's side right? Like, OMG! Who in the world you think you are?! Ok, it's not that bad lha actually. I have no hard feelings towards him. I just find it hard to believe, that's all.

So, I replied him:

Hallo chard!~

hmm, regarding lili, g ga bs ngomong byk si chard..soalnya, no offense, tp mnurut g, lo yg salah. g tau byk org yg don't mind klo pasangannya punya byk platonic relationship, tp lili pduli. and for all i know, you chose your friendship, which, although proves that you're a noble man, shows just how much (read: little) you loved her.

g yakin lo jg tau klo lili itu slalu brusaha tampil kuat. dia tuuh ga suka kliatan lmah, padahal dia maah rapuh bgt! and i think you did break her.

dan klo masalah dia msi ga bs tmenan ama lo, yaah wajar lha chard! give her some time to sort things out. and please don't take this the wrong way, but i do hope you think about her feelings(read : stop being so self absorbed) lo mgkn uda ga ada prasaan sayank k dia ky pacar, tp dia uda lupain lo blom? you lose a friend, she lose a boyfriend. slain itu, the fact klo lo lbi mili tmen lo drpd dia pasti msi sakit dunk chard.

well i guess that's all. don't take this the wrong way yaah! g ga punya hard feelings whatsoever k lo koq. cm mengutarakan pndapat.

btw, klo datnk k sini blg aja :D i'll be your guide!~

jiao!

OK, i know it sounds harsh, but in my defense, i put a smiley at the end of the letter! And again, who does he think he is?! :S

JD and Bobby and the BITCH and the COWARD

I don't really have so much time right now, so I'm just gonna put what I wrote to Mitch the other day here. This pretty much says everything.

Mitch!

Just now, the bitch told me that it is not nice that we make faces every time we meet each other just because of the puppies. So I said, “ Ok, fine. Do you know why your puppies keep crying? (day and night. I tell you!) it’s because you confine them in a cage (not that big) and if you just do a LITTLE research, you would’ve known that. But you don’t, do you?” and she told me, she does a research, and that it is part of the training (always the same excuse!), and that they just want attention because they want to play. I mean who doesn’t know that dogs need affection?! BITCH! So I told her, I have a dog, and I have extended families who have dogs, and I have a lot of my friends who have dogs, but I’ve never seen any dogs who whimper all the time like this one. I wanted to tell her that she has failed and that she doesn’t deserve a dog, but I didn’t. Instead, I said, “your call!” and then I walked away.

That bitch! I can bet with you for $50 that it is her cowardly husband who tells her to ask me to cool down about things.

OMG! Bitch and Coward, they’re so meant for each other!