anomaly..

this will b a vr crappy blog..so please..for your own time-saving..stop looking at this stupid blog for i don't even know what the hell i am about to discuss in this blog..

i am bored..i am tired..my heart beats so fast that i feel as if i just finish my 2.4 run..and u know what is worst?i can't sleep!!damn it..

he is soooo damn irritating!!at one time, he'll treat me like a princess, melt my heart to the point where i think i really fall for him..the next thing i know he is not willing to meet me or to spend time with me..replying my msg seems to be an obligation rather than he wants it..what the hell?!yeah..whatever man..

i hate this kind of feeling..i feel as if i'm on this fast and dangerous rollercostr that i hav no control of..i feel as if it plays me and not the other way round..it feels weird and i somehow don't like it..

well it's not as if i like him..good thing that he treat me like this..i don't have to force myself not to like him..he is damn irritating to start with..

juz dun give a damn..i think it will turn out ok..no probs at all..

the class chalet..

the class chalet was wondrful!!i was glad tat i didn't actually skip tat..cum to think of it..i think i luv my class!!well..at least sum of them..

the sweet n fun thing i xprienced in the chalet:

* when i reach there aftr walkin in the rain, zuan n gerald gave me towels hurriedly..(scard i was sick yeah?)

* they teach me mahjong!!! (now i can play liao!!)

* lily and mad cooked me noodle when i was playin mahjong

* bashbash kept feeding me..

* watching movies with the class

* the games we played (watr game, watr melon game, captain's ball)

* json taught me bball

* we played ps2 (i'm lousy at it lha..but i really enjoyd it!!)

* the barbeque

* when i slept on the couch due to my migraine n shawn askd me to go to the room so tat i can rest well..

* the fact tat jun jie n tian chong lowerd the voklume of their ps2 so that i can sleep there undisturbd..

* the fact tat json knew i was pretending to sleep though i was vr sure i pretndd well..

really..it was the small little things they did tat makes the chalet so special..i thought the chalet would b so damn boring..but heii!!it was wondrful!!

thanx s71..u guys hav succeeded in making my staying here worthwhile..well..not exactly worthwhile, but at least u guys hav made my staying in spore bearable..i hope to c u guys in the near future!!

now tat i realise..i love json not in tat way..i love him in a funnier way..i think my feeling towards him is rooted from the need to b loved..it startd out from the fact tat i miss the existence of a brothr, who i can rely upon anitin n everitin..yeah..i think it's bcozz of tat..well he is a good brothr..i think his sis is vr lucky..it's a gr8 feelin to finally realisin wad i hav towards him man..OMG..2yrs man!!haha..thanx json..for everitin..u've certainly made an impact in my lyf..i hope to c u in the future..n i'm sure i'll mizz u so much!!

my good fren in S71..lily n bash..i'll mizz u all lyk mad..u've always had ways to turn my bad daes the othr way round..n i love the fact tat i feel so securd bein ard u guys..

my closst fren in S71..2t..u've always been wondrfully kind to me..though there're tyms when i hurt u, u still cum back n forgive me..u're special in a lot of ways..n i love u lyk a biggr sista..sumtym i can't undrstand wad u think..sumtym i h8 u soo much tat i feel lyk cryin..despite all tat, i can't deny tat i love u so much..n without u my stayin in s71 wouldn't b as meabningful..

tat's a small little thing from my class..

gege mncari cinta..

the bst indon novel i've read for the past dunno how many years..it's so damn funny tat i really can't stop laughin in MRT on my way meetin miun ystrdae..n the endin was..WAAH!!it's not fairy-tale like kind of story tat u think everyone lives happilyever aftr..instead, it's soo simply n normally ended tat i can even imagine tat happnin in real lyf!!n it does teach a lot of stuff bout love..

okaii i'm sorii for bein too commercial-lyk here..but it's really really good..if u only read one indon novel this year, this book should b on top of the list..

aniwae..gege prna bilang klo ce itu mo punya pacar supaya bs disayank..klo co itu karna rasa ingin memiliki..dia blg ce itu tuuh deserve bt jd poros dunia co-nya..tmpat di mana semesta sang co brputr..eem..pasti indaa bgt yaah klo qta uda nmuin tuuh co..org yg bner2 sayang ama qta ampe qta tuuh sgalanya bt mreka..without us, they can't live for without us, their world can't go round..

soo!!sobat ce2 ku trcinta..dun go for love..let it cum to u n it'll settle there forever..lbi awet drpd klo u go find it..

indahnya dunia stla exam...

haha..klo yg baca anak yg blom sls a's maah pasti dia rasanya pngen bunu g pake piso d..well tp emank iyaah..rasanya free bgt uda sls exam..ga ada lg yg namanya econs!!!how amazing can tat b?!

haha..sorii..overexcited.. ^-^

gilaa!!sangking lamanya g ga prna buka ni blog, g ampe lupa password g..sound so damn stupid i know.but yeah..pple do forgt okaii!! (in my defense)

aniwae walopun a's uda klar n it's unchangeable skrg, g sumhow lmyn ngrasa sux abiizz..rathr anee sii..tp kynya lbi gara2 g ngrasa as if i've screwd each n every papr i did..well xcept for maths, yg g lmyn bs harapkan..othr than tat..WAAH!!zero man i tell u!! -_-"

tp skrg adalah waktu untuk brpikir dan merenunk ttg apa aja yg uda trjadi di keidupan g..jd i'll stop thinkin bout exam bt skrg ini..tis is the strange thing bout exam..over yet stays on..aniwae..ganti topik..ganti topik..

eem apa yaah?well..g jd lmyn dket ama rsa blakangan..sumhow sii..gara2 qta srink blajar barnk di erpot..truzz prna jg dia datnk k waffletown bt tmenin g blajar..i dunno y tp g jd mulai nungguin dia sms tiap hr pas ujian..sim blg sii no worries n itu wajar..yg anenya lg, pas ud ga ujian (these daes i mean) g ama skalii uda ga pduli dia mo sms ato ga..ane yaah?i think exam stress yaah? the feeling of i-need-sumone-to-b-there-for-me-in-my-most-stress-period..

pas g pikir2..kayanya itu alesan knp org pngen punya pacar d..as in tmen emank bs di-count on..tp they have their own lives yeah? g slalu mikir tat i dun want to b a burdn to anyone..apalagi tmen bae g..n i know tat most pple won't agree wit my weird thought..tp yaah gituu d..i'm happy when they curhat k g..it shows tat they really take me as a good fren..rite?tp g ga suka bt critain masala g k mreka in the sense tat i dun want them to worry..funny eh?haha..tp klo pacar..itu bda!!mreka tuuh committd ama qta..we r theirs n they r ours..well partly at least..so kwjibaannnya yaah qta hrs bein there for each othr..makanya g rada kget waktu dnger kisah relationship miun ama co nya..well..maybe it's the way we define each term of relationship tat's diff..makanya pandangan qta ga bs sama..

aniwae balik k mahluk yg namanya rsa..iya..dia tuuh yaah..baiiiiik bgt d..as in really really baiiiiik bgt bgt supr dupr..haha..ok too much..baiknya dia tuuh yg agak jail dan nybelin kdank2..tp srinkan baiknyaa tuuh bikin g ampe ngrasa ga enak gituu d..as in we're not even tat close..blakangan tamba dket sii, cuma klo g sii ga bakal ksi pinjm tmen g yg kdar dket relationshipnya se-qta tuuh discman g yg mantp abizz n burnin cd yg isinya 100an lagu..baik bgt?jlas!!ampe kdank2 jd suka mikir..gmn cara bals baenya dia? truzz dia tuuh suka bgt bliin makanan yg akirnya qta makan barnk (i know wad u think..it's always about food for me yeah?haha)..g ga nyangka dia tuuh royal amat..pdhl olip blg dia khan plit..haha..eem tp dr smuanya sii..yg bikin g ngrasa bgt klo dia tuuh baik bgt sii waktu qta di erpot n g lg kcapean n mo bo2..brhubung g pake rok gara2 br pulank skul, g bobo di sofa sambil raptin kaki g..truzz si mahluk baik ini lgs buka jakt dia n put it on my lap supaya g ga kdingina ktnya..padahal maah 2 jem kmdn pas g bgn, dianya lg menggigil di sofa samping g..sweet?iya..bangt mala!!if only dia lbi pede dikit n mo nrima dirinya ndiri apa adanya, pasti banyak d ce yg naksir..too bad dia msi ngliat dirinya as sumone yg ga brprospek, alias ga PD..summore dia orgnya mo ngelindungin..i knew tis through an annoyin xprience wit an old cleaning-srvice uncle which i prefer not to talk about)..yaah pokoke he's a good fren dan rasanya g mo bals baenya dia d..tp ga tau musti ngapain..aah..bodo d!!ntar aja pas qta ktmu lg i'll ask him wad i can do for him..

ooh..shari sblom GP paper g br tau ada 1 kata yg namanya mutilation..it's about cuttin sum part of woman's genital in order to ensure tat she's still a virgin on the dae of her marriage..msi dilakukan di skitar sudan sana..well aniwae i told my roomies tat i was goin to write tat on my essay the nxt dae no mattr wad..the problem was tat i couldn't spell the thing..the nxt dae, though, i really did write on my exam script!!ecstatic, i calld my roomie to tell her bout it..she was lyk, "huh?mulitation?never heard of it.." damn it!!not only did i spell the word wrong, i also pronounced it wroing!!pai seh..

aniwae, i read bout tis priest from an evangelic church sumwhere in US, i think..he was really really against gay community tat one dae, one male prostitute came up n told the media tat the priest had been having sex wit him for the past three years..unbelievable but true..yeah..a priest..so he was fired n pple hate him for being a hypocrete..but cum to think of it..isn't it stated in the bible that we, of all beings, are not supposed to judge others for we are all sinful?n isn't he a vr sad case?beside lying to othrs, he also lied to himself..how sad can tat b?i'm sure it's vr painful for the family to learn bout tis, but i think there will cum a dae for acceptance..after all love is all bout acceptance..n i love wad the journalist said in the end of the article.."the strange thing about truth is tat it sets u free" well maybe the priest now can't hide behind the mask he used to put on..but it also means tat he is free rite?he doesn't hav to b a fraid of wad othrs think anymore for they ald know!!n i really think that the truth sets u free..

morale of the story? love urself bfor u try to love othrs foe only den, u can find the prson who deserves to b wit u..so wad if tat means u turn to b a gay?u love that prson n vice versa n both of ur universe collide..tat's the beauty of nature..

let it b!!n live it!!