wadeva..

nvmd..i giv up..i will neve b as good as her..nor will anione lyk me more than her..

so here i am..alone in e dark..sobbin quietly so as not to wake my roomie..regrettin everitin i have done..everitin i hav chosen..

y did i go to innova?
y did i force to go to 05S71?
y did i think they will accept me as they do to her?
y did i fall for him?
y did i ever think there is always a possibility he would lyk me?
y did i think i had frenzz in S71?
close ones summore?

it was all my imagination..my prfect dream of sumwhere i belong..too bad it isn't..n it will never b..it was all fake n unreal..n all tis while i hav been tryin soo hard (too hard) to assure myself tat i live in a prfect world, where everyone is my fren n they lyk me as wad a fren usually does..

too bad they don't!!!

i am tired of them..i am tired of him..i am tired of IJC..i am tired for everitin!!!!

when he didn't msg me although he plan class outin for tml, i was heart brokn..not yet enough hurtin me, it turnd out tat he msgd her..still not enough, ying also msg her but not me..i am nobody to anione..well at least not in my class..who am i aniwae?

i thought ying was my fren..nobody dared to go near her at first..i was e first gurl who approach her..n she was closest to me..well it turns out tat now she knows e othr gurls in class, she doesn't lyk me as much as she lyk them rite?!i am juzz e last resort remembr?pple go to me bcozz i am always there for them..bcozz i am friendly..but too bad!!it's not enough!!i am still a dull n borin gurl in e end!!wadeva..dun care liao..

i am anti social!!cun u dare cum near me!!