sad lyf of me..

these daes suck!!

well..maybe i demand too much..maybe i'm soo damn not thankful for wad i hav..but heii!!i juzz want to b happy ok..mind u..but pple hav rights to want to b happy!!

i went NUS open house to c whethr i hav any chances to go there or not..well..i do hope i do..den i met rhesa who kept askin me bout my CCA..not irritatin at first..but HELLOW?!kepp askin non-stop lhe!!wad e hell?!ok..so i can't make it into e team..so wad?!wad's ur problem man?!i know u can make it!!so u hav to show off ah?!annoyin!!!!

in e evenin i went to airport to send olip off last saturdae..which turnd out to b quite disastruos..sad to say..

i wantd to talk to olip on e way..long tym neve really talk to her liao..but yeah..her frenzz were cumin..so..nvmd lha yaah..no need to elaborate here..in short, i felt sooo damn left out bcozz they kept talkin sumtin tat i dun undrstand..too bad i'm not a social prson..i am anti social!!!YEY!

todae was a vr vr vr tirin dae!!econs for 3hrs in e mornin..den maths for 3 hrs!!waah!!how good can tat b?!though maths felt to b vr vr fast n fun!!(i can't believe i say tis..)well..i think tchers do play a part in pupils' study..(i shall b nice n say notin bout my last maths tcher..)

so i decided to go to saunders's house to watch e gay movie..(tat sounds wrong sumhow..)n i askd 2t n zuan to go wit me..well..everitin went quite well till e part where i was supposed to watch n they disturbd me wit y-tis-show-is-vr-long kind of statement..talkin sooo loud summore..eeh..plzzz lha!!!they disturbd me durin e most important part lho!!wth?!in e ned i didn't get e show n it was kinda wastin my tym..ok..so i askd them to accompany me..but if they didn't want they can juzz refuse to rite?!wth..wth..wth..

in e end of e dae..saunders showd 2t all e school photos he had taken..ALL u know!!ALL!!but when i wantd to c, he didn't allow me n said it was already too l8 n told us tat we were supposed to go home..wth?!i know he lyks 2t lha..but hellow?!i'm also a human bein ok..i hav feelin!!it's not bcozz i can laugh all e way, meanin i can not b sad!!it's not bcozz i can not scould pple, meanin i can not get angry ok!!juzz bcozz i am blur doesn't mean i am juzz a kid who has no feelin ok!!i juzz wantd to c a few photos, yet he can't let me..

okaii..maybe it's juzz me demandin too much..aftr all he has been a good host by allowin me to go there n watch movie..n aniwae 2t is vr special for her wad?!calm down!!CALM DOWN!!

i know tis sounds lyk a diff me..but yeah..i am sorri to say tat i AM lyk tis..i'm not perfect!!far from it as a mattr of fact!!

when will pple think i am a grown-up who has feelin?!

if only i could hav wings
i'd let e earth finish my bloody flesh
i'd giv up everitin,even my name
i'd thrust a knife into my heart
n let evritin burst off
jealousy, broken pieces, revenge, self-pity
leavin only one feelin inside..
LOVE!!

stayin wit u ur whole lyf
protectin u..
cheerin for u..
bein ur angel..
wad else can i ask from mothr earth?

*entitled for those who r able to read my blog*