i wanna go home!!

i am a big girl with a big smile and a big heart..
i am a big girl with responsibilities hiden within the mask i always wear..
i am a big girl with burden as hevy as rocks on my shoulders..
i am a big girl, but even a big girl needs her sanctuary sometimes..
i wanna go home..

well, i don't really know if i have a home anymore..all these years, i've always felt i don't really belong at home anymore..though i can't say i feel as if i'm at home when i'm in singapore too..

i am so lost..

i think that waht LOST is all about..being so lost in your mind and in your feelings, that you can't even recognised yourself anymore..the feelings of wanting to go home is the sole reason of why they tried to survive in the island..but when they had the chance, they realised that it was all gone..they no longer had the reason to live..i was thinking, maybe they were 'sent' there because they no longer had the reason to live..because they want to die..