doa akhir tahun

dear GOD,

for what it worths, i want to tell u that i am grateful for whatever it is that you have done to me..and that i am sorry for what i have done that is despicable for you..

i have done many things that i can be proud of..there are, however, even more things that i wish i can change..things that i am so ashamed of, and i'd rather have my memory erased..therefore, GOD, i want to apologise for my weaknesses, for my sins, and for me..i am worthless and i'm sorry for that..

in 2007, i have felt so blessed in many ways..and i'd like to think that it is because of you that i have so many things to be happy for..Thank you so much, my GOD..

i know i'm not supposed to ask from you anything, for you have granted us everything we need, but i can't help it for i know that i am very far from perfection..and for i know that everyone wants to be perfect..

i wish to be given strength so as to be able to help others
i wish to be given confidence so as to be able to have my points said out loud
i wish to be given patience for i know i am lack of it
i wish to be given wisdom so as to be able to know what is best to do

but the one thing i'd really wish to have, my Lord, is compassion..

with all my love, dear GOD, i wish that you will forgive me and all others..and i wish you will help to change the world to be a better place..and i wish we, human, to become more humane..and i wish that you will protect all the people that i love..and i wish life will be worth living..but most of all, i wish we all have love and we all have a 'happily ever after'..

my dear GOD, i have regrets that i don't share with anyone..i have experienced things that not a lot of girl my age have..i have my own sufferings..but please, ooh my dear GOD, please don't let me turn into someone less worthy and full of bitterness..

thank GOD for whatever have happened and i am sorry that there are a lot of times, i have failed you..

*may 2008 be a better year than 2007*

ps. dear GOD, please help mama lan to go through what she has to go through..i wish her all happiness and peace..

thank you thank you thank you!!!