i need pple!!!

okaii..i know now i am bein soo funny n unrealistic..(juzz for u guys who havn't noticd, when i say funny, i mean weird, in a nicer n bettr word)

i miss pple!!!

i took those daes in NYGBS for grantd n now wad i mizz the most is the tym when i was there with all the pple..

screw those bullshit i-need-my-own-space last tym i told myself bout..i dun need tym for myself..i need me!!which is incomplete without pple to whom i am vr comfortable with..the ones i can share my everitin wit..i mizz u all..mizz u all lyk crazy..

i know it is really really unrealistic to hav tis kind of thing..aftr all i am about to turn 19 in less than a month tym..n i realise to the fullst tat we live our own lives in our own unique ways!!but y can't i get over tis feelin?l8ly i hav been feelin blue n empty..n i dunno y!!!tis is where it gets so damn frustratin!!

i feel tat my lyf us gettin dull n dullr..no more colour n sparks lyk last tym..i mizz those tyms when even the smallst lamest joke could make me laugh out loud without havin to force myself to do so..when the sharin of dirty jokes could get me a stomachache out of laughin too hard..remembr the tym when listnin to ur frens' probs was the easiest thing to do since they r willin to share n they trust u wit tat?when the celebration of bdae was too normal to actually bein noticd?when it feels vr easy to juzz cry in front of everione as they know n accept u for who u r?when goin anywhere at anitym wit aniwho is no probs at all since togehrness was 24/7..those r the tyms i mizz the most..the feelin in which everi mornin u know u can spend ur tym wit those u trust the most..those ard u..

went out with dian n alga n tasya ystrdae..notin much but we talkd a lot, made me realise tat i mizz those tyms so badly..

i dun regrt the fact tat i went into IJC..it has been the funnst part in my lyf as a mattr of fact..a lot of class outin, though i am not vr close to them, well, some of them..a lot of stayin out wit olip n mike n sum othr frenzz..but i mizz those true frenzz..those who needs me n trust me n lyks me n accpt me.. >.<

okaii..here i am unrealistic n lonely..wth..

maybe the reason i mizz those tyms cozz i really felt good bout myself those daes..well..yeah..i loved me!!no doubt, there was cryin, sobbin, cursin, n etc n etc..but i got my frenzz wit me..n there was more laughtr,ecstaticness (got such word meh?!) n hugs,kisses, love, n a lot more!!

i hav always known i am weird..i am different from pple, yet, at the same tym, i am most similar to them..i am not special at all..not the one tat when pple first saw me, they would go lyk,"waah!!tat's mirna.." nope..definately not lyk tat..

talkin bout insecurity, dian told me tat she is actually one too!!unbelievable!!if she is, den how bout me?a total insecure gurl whom everione doesn't take seriously..

okaii mirna!!stop it!!

wadeva..i am goin bathin now..washin away tis stupid non-important feelin i feel inside..