todae i pon!!

well..okaii..notin to b proud about ok..n it wasn't as if i wantd to pon skul or wad..i realise i hav pon too many tyms liao n it is tym to stop..but it really wasn't my fault tat 3 of us couldn't wake up rite?well..partly yeah it was our fault for not settin e alarm..but..heii..we didn't plan it or anitin.we juzz sumhow did..

in conclusion: i dun feel guilty.. >.<>

I still can't believe tat saunders actually feel e same way as i do..as in he feels tat he has no frenzz n tat he is scard tat he'll b a burdn more than a fren..if only he can read my blog i think he'll b damn surprisd..well..i think pple hav their up n down..maybe it is juzz in our mind tat we think tat way..maybe it is all mainly our imagination..eithr way, it is a bad thing to hav tis kind of thoughts..it reflects in our behaviour n sumhow it makes othrs feelin uncomfortable bein near us..it is vr bad!!n contagious too!!PPLE BEWARE!!once u've got it muzz straight away talk to sumone u trust k!!depression n ostracism kills!!

2t told me bout gerald n mel..how she has changd A LOT aftr gerald confessd to her..2t told me tat she is now soo fake..n gerald thinks so too!!i am so damn surprisd tat i actually don't realise it..i've always thought tat i h8 fake pple..but i juzz can't h8 mel..she is juzz too nice..well..maybe she is fake..but i dun think it is juzz too xtreme..maybe she juzz feels tat she has to jaim in front of gerald..well..i think it makes sense..

i askd 2t if i am fake..

well..sumtyms..

haah?how?

eem..lyk..when u lie..i always know..it's juzz tat i dun always tell u tat i know..

haah?y neve tell me?i thought u always tell me if u know..

no lha..there r tyms..

lyk wad?!tell me lhe..

lyk "i'm ok..i'm ok..it's ok" (wit a fake smile on her face)

haah?!u know bout tat?!y neve tell me?

of course i know lha..vr obvious wad?but i know u want to b alone so i juzz let it b lho..

i laughd lyk mad aftrwards..she thought i laughd bcozz i was paiseh..but hell no!!i laughd bcozz i was sumhow rathr touchd..i hav always thought tat she didn't know (or care) tat i was sad..tat's y she didn't try to console me..but she knew!!n she didn't want to make me feel uncomfortable by tryin to console me..(thought i find tis a bit weird..but i think diff pple hav diff ways of treatin their frenzz..)i was really touchd..

gan ann gave 3 of us (609) a bottle of honey bcozz she thought we were really sick..soooo sweet rite?!i luv gan ann!!e bst AHM alive!!(180 degree diff from steph ann!!)

my HP is undr repair!!so sad!!i feel soo lost without my phone sumhow!!hikz..nvmd..can still survive i think..