it slappd me n woke me up..
i juzz realise sumtin tat i should hav realisd lon long tym ago..maybe i was juzz too scard to admit tat i want it..scard tat i wouldn't get it in e end n pple laughd at me behind my back..(which is wad i calld eem..thinkin too much?wel..yeah..i think tat's e word..)or maybe i was juzz too stubborn to c e inside of me cozz i was too comfortable in my own little nice n cozy boundary..eithr way..it was juzz too bad..n i want to change myself now..i'll be more truthful to myself n try to achieve wad i want..maybe it's too l8..maybe i juzz waste my tym..but i have to go on..i dun want to regrt myself l8r in e end of e dae..i think it's vr pathetic if one dun try to live her life to e fullst when they still can n in e end of e dae reggretin it n keep complainin to her kids..or worse still..try to push in her dreams to her kids' lives..makin their lives miserable..
aniwae..i know it sounds lyk crap..but sumone has really opnd my eyes l8ly..tat lyf is not all bout goin out n go shoppin n watch movies..(which i know is vr vr FUN!!esp if we go wit our cliques who really know us..)
it's bout goin thru lots of stuff..bout doin wad u wanna do..not wad othrs wanna do..bout bein xcitd in wadever u do..bout doin ur bst in wadever way u hav chosn how to live ur lyf..
well..i luv playin bball..but till now i neve play..guess y?yup..yup..i was too scard pple know tat i was soo lousy..too scard pple won't pass to me..too scard tat i will disappoint myself bcozz i am sooo lousy..
u c?so many 'too scard' in my reasonin!!i can't believe tis..n all tis while i've always thought tat my real motto is "FUCK WAD PPLE SAY" ?
how cum i juzz realise tis l8ly?now tat i'm no longr a teenagr?(well..almost..i'm 19 tis yr aniwae..) isn't it a bit too l8 to realise tat?
anothr thing..i hav chosn my CCA..n i luv it!!i really do..but i neve even try to go for e school team..Y?well..again..i dun want pple to c me as sumone sooo entu n in e end of e dae i won't get in..so pathetic?surely is..now tat i want to go for it..i think it's too l8 liao..but i'll try my bst..i dun care..i dun want to regrt my teens lyf(ovr soon btw..)n hav no stories to tell my kids l8r on.. ^-^
DIE DIE ALSO I'LL TRY!!!MUZZZ OK!!!
even for dance also i was too pai seh to join n in e end i juzz join now..>.<>
well..i actually realisd tis bcozz of him..he was e one who told me (indirctly) tat i hav to liv my lyf..i think i muzz thank him sumhow..though when he said so, he didn't mean to insult me..(he was juzz askin me bout my CCA n how free i was..to which e answr was yes..yes..n yes..)although it was juzz a small chat..i find it vr disturbin..not juzz bcozz he was e one who said it..but also bcozz of e fact tat i realise how i've wastd my 18yrs of lyf tryin to bluff myself!!!how pathetic can tat b?
i'll join e school team..
i'll go for e audition..
i'll practise dancin every week..
i'll train my bball shootin at least once a week..
i'll catch up wit my studies..
PROMISE muzz b KEPT!!
aniwae..i know it sounds lyk crap..but sumone has really opnd my eyes l8ly..tat lyf is not all bout goin out n go shoppin n watch movies..(which i know is vr vr FUN!!esp if we go wit our cliques who really know us..)
it's bout goin thru lots of stuff..bout doin wad u wanna do..not wad othrs wanna do..bout bein xcitd in wadever u do..bout doin ur bst in wadever way u hav chosn how to live ur lyf..
well..i luv playin bball..but till now i neve play..guess y?yup..yup..i was too scard pple know tat i was soo lousy..too scard pple won't pass to me..too scard tat i will disappoint myself bcozz i am sooo lousy..
u c?so many 'too scard' in my reasonin!!i can't believe tis..n all tis while i've always thought tat my real motto is "FUCK WAD PPLE SAY" ?
how cum i juzz realise tis l8ly?now tat i'm no longr a teenagr?(well..almost..i'm 19 tis yr aniwae..) isn't it a bit too l8 to realise tat?
anothr thing..i hav chosn my CCA..n i luv it!!i really do..but i neve even try to go for e school team..Y?well..again..i dun want pple to c me as sumone sooo entu n in e end of e dae i won't get in..so pathetic?surely is..now tat i want to go for it..i think it's too l8 liao..but i'll try my bst..i dun care..i dun want to regrt my teens lyf(ovr soon btw..)n hav no stories to tell my kids l8r on.. ^-^
DIE DIE ALSO I'LL TRY!!!MUZZZ OK!!!
even for dance also i was too pai seh to join n in e end i juzz join now..>.<>
well..i actually realisd tis bcozz of him..he was e one who told me (indirctly) tat i hav to liv my lyf..i think i muzz thank him sumhow..though when he said so, he didn't mean to insult me..(he was juzz askin me bout my CCA n how free i was..to which e answr was yes..yes..n yes..)although it was juzz a small chat..i find it vr disturbin..not juzz bcozz he was e one who said it..but also bcozz of e fact tat i realise how i've wastd my 18yrs of lyf tryin to bluff myself!!!how pathetic can tat b?
i'll join e school team..
i'll go for e audition..
i'll practise dancin every week..
i'll train my bball shootin at least once a week..
i'll catch up wit my studies..
PROMISE muzz b KEPT!!
posted by fishball at
5:05 PM
1 Comments:
Hey Mir......
Its never too late say...... NEVER Remember... for anythg....Am glad u realised it sooner than later...
U shld never be embarrassed to prove u can do it .... Even if ur lousy at anythg in fact people will respect u more cos u actually were brave enuff to prove them wrong... Practice makes Perfect....Am sure sooner or later ull b good in bball as well as hip hop dancing and many othr things so way to go Sis!! :) I support u fully........ bt dnt forget ur studies ya..... Study hard ***hugz n kisses***
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